perasaan yang aneh . mengapa sekarang hati ini merasa perih? ada yang menyakiti? tidak satupun! tapi memang ingin melampiaskan perasaan aneh ini . hanya satu pikiran yang membuat hati ini aneh. yang telah ku pendam sangat lama . tidak tau kapan akan meledak . terlalu lama di pendam . membuat hati ini merasa aneh . efek yang sangat luar biasa . tergores sedikit menimbulkan penyakit bertahun tahun tidak bisa di obati . terlalu sakit . dan hanya aku yang mengetahui . kusimpan sangat erat tidak tau kapan bisa meledak semua perasaan aneh ini? hati ini berteriak ! perasaan ini membuat semua badan tak berfungsi seutuhnya . aku membutuhkan udara , yang sangat banyak . memory hati ini mungkin telah full karena satu hal yang tak bisa terpecahkan . mungkin tiga tahun baru akan meledak? aku juga tidak mengetahui kapan akan meledak . hanya menunggu waktu yang tepat .

leaving someone behind, means you only want the best for him,

event if it means swallowing the sad reality that the best just isn't you

Half of me wants to stay right where I am, in this stressful place because it’s all that I know. There’s something comforting in daily routine and sameness. Like perhaps everything isn’t as bad as it appears, that maybe these things just take time to fix themselves. The other half wants me to leave and never come back, to forget everything about this place that I call home and settle somewhere else. Somewhere where no one knows me and I can live as I please without any questions or criticism.

Nisa ,Mesa, Ires, Fheny, Nindi

"setiap perpisahan akan memberikan banyak 
 kenangan, maka janganlah sia-siakan 
 seseorang dalam hidupmu."
  
                                ____ Dion Agung

ketika ku melihat ke langit , aku melihat ribuan bintang bertaburan.
ketika di kegelapan tak satupun cahaya menerangi ku.
ketika ku menatap dinding yang kusam, banyak bercak coretan garis memanjang.
ketika ku pejamkan mata , banyak bayangan melintas di benakku.
ketika ku merasakan angin menerpa jari jemariku ,
ku merasakan sesuatu yang tak bisa ku sentuh .
abstrak , gelap , keramaian , coretan , hembusan , bayangan.
semua itu terlintas di dalam benakku .
menggambarkan apa yang ku rasa .
seperti saat ku merasakan kesendirian.

Histrionic Personality Disorder

Histrionic Personality Disorder

Signs:

• Be uncomfortable unless he or she is the center of attraction
• Shift emotions rapidly
• Overly concerned about physical appearance
• Constantly seek reassurance or approval
• Gullible and easily influenced by others
• Make rash decisions
• Not thinking before acting
• Sensitive to criticism or disapproval
• Low tolerance for frustration
• Difficulty in maintaining relationships
• Threaten or attempt suicide to get attention
• Act very dramatically with exaggerated emotions and expressions

There are people in my life, that I never want to lose. People who, I learned to hate and love at the same time. People who I got along with and cried over because of some stupid reason. 




And… just imagining to lose them makes me feel so sad. Like, I can really cry by just the thought of them saying goodbye or worse, not saying a farewell at all.

                                      desaturate

Moving on is tough process. What we had a year ago was not a big deal. But I guess it was for me.
 I did like you a lot. The way you talk, the way you make those funny faces, the way you look,
your tan skin, your eyes. I loved every little detail of you. It sucks that although I keep on convincing…

Half of me wants to stay right where I am, in this stressful place because it’s all that I know. There’s something comforting in daily routine and sameness. Like perhaps everything isn’t as bad as it appears, that maybe these things just take time to fix themselves. The other half wants me to leave and never come back, to forget everything about this place that I call home and settle somewhere else. Somewhere where no one knows me and I can live as I please without any questions or criticism.